CHRONICLES OF A RETAIL NPC

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I am still aliveeeee!! 

Here marks the end of my hiatus, I guess. For a month or so after Mechacon, I was really ill. Tired all the time, my head was foggy and I couldn't think well, and I was waking up with migraines that would last a few days at a time. Then I gave my scanner to my brother when he left home for university in August. Soooo... I put off uploading stuff. Until now!! I just took some pictures on my camera and then Photoshopped them... I could have been doing that all along... I am so lame... OTL

It's holiday season in the retail biz and my employer is chronically understaffed, so I've been working a lot.

I'm feeling better than I was a few months ago, I think, but my head still doesn't feel awesome. I have chronic brain fog and it's SO annoying. I'm apathetic about life and art and work. Especially work. But I'm pushing myself a lot more and hoping for the best. My confidence is really low because of the headfog, and it's a really big obstacle when I'm applying for professional jobs. Those few times I've been able to muscle through applications and cover letters to get an interview, I can't seem to impress. I know the economy is kind of meh and I don't have a lot of experience so it's gonna take a while regardless of how well I perform in interviews, but it's a drag. I feel like everything I had to offer is being held hostage until I find the miracle potion that makes my head feel less fuzzy! But I needs job so I can gets money so I can take better care of myself and feel better. I can't just wait around until I feel better. So I just keep searching for work in a kind of dizzy haze because I can't do much else about it lol. It's... disheartening. More freelance projects to beef up my portfolio would probably help, so that maybe I don't have to do as much talking. I'm bad at talking. Herpderp. 

Maybe the antidepressant drug makes my brain foggy. If that is the case, then I can just learn lots of freelance skills and then become a hikikomori! .... right?? ... sigh................

My folks are replacing my scanner for Christmas, so I can probably upload stuff again. 

THAT'S ALL FOLKS
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Vectony's avatar
Get pumped...Do you consider yourself energetic? '3'